How am I here at 32 weeks?! Also, how on earth has is taken me this long to update my blog?! Probably because I've been pretty darn busy...

I'm one week away from having a "viable" baby. Not that I would ever wish for this little peanut to be born anytime soon, but ...

Hands up if you're already sick of Christmas adverts rubbing it in your nose that you don't have your baby with you this Christmas (...

Dear Freddie , You are my only true love and you are my proudest creation. I know a mother is always biased but you were the most...

It's been 4 months tomorrow since I've been trying for a second baby. Nothing. I know to many 4 months is a drop in the ocean in ter...

Another moaning and miserable post, shock! I honestly don't know what is going wrong with my body currently. I feel as if slowly but sur...

The first thing to clear up is that there is no path of "normailty" with grief. There is no set steps of grief. Grief cannot be pu...

I haven't written poetry since I was in Year 8 and I won a poetry competition at school. I had to get up in front of the whole scho...

How did I even get here? I think I find myself asking this nearly daily. All I know is that my baby died and that I'm still clinging on....

I am so excited to take part in the Capture Your Grief project this October. In some ways it is sad that I'm at a point in my life where...

Freddie will always be in our hearts. That's a given, he will never, ever be forgotten. But for me, I need more than that.These days, it...

Initially I started this blog to update about my pregnancy, birth and to track Freddie's milestones as he passed through his childhood....

Since as long as I can remember, I've always felt guilt very strongly. I'm one of those people that do something and then think abou...

The new normal is a phrase widely used by those who have lost a baby. It's a completely different way of life, like nothing you...

About last night. I feel like I've been in a car crash and I'm still trying to recover from it. I don't even know why it was so ...

I was inspired to write this post after I saw this question posed on the facebook page of   Still Standing Magazine . "W hat do y...

You know what I'm sick of? Bullshit quotes and instagram posts that summarise in a number of different ways that "everything happen...

Since I was little, I have always loved baking. My mum was constantly producing freshly baked goodies and delicious home cooked meals. I...

Since losing Freddie life has been far from easy. It's rare that I find myself truly experiencing a moment of happiness. I find myself c...