Spoiler alert: Being a Mum is hard work. Being a Mum after loss is even harder. But you know what, I got this. The first night we took Hun...

We actually made it. We have him here and he is safe and he is healthy and he is all ours. Our beautiful rainbow baby. Hunter Edward Ray Jen...

The 1st of June. We're nearly there. Where there is, I'm not entirely sure. It could be having another dead baby. Brutal but the onl...

How am I here at 32 weeks?! Also, how on earth has is taken me this long to update my blog?! Probably because I've been pretty darn busy...

I meant to write a post about our first Easter without Freddie a while ago but just never got round to it, I feel like life is going at 300 ...

I'm one week away from having a "viable" baby. Not that I would ever wish for this little peanut to be born anytime soon, but ...

We finally did it. We told the world we are having baby; Freddie will be a big brother and we will be parents to two boys (and one small ...

Aaaand breathe. I made it, I survived a scan and I came out with the news we had only dreamed of 6 months ago. We are definitely having ...

Life recently seems to be a mix of lows and highs. No in between, it's either an up or a down. But that's OK I guess. It makes a cha...

I have mixed feelings towards 2016 as I'm sure many loss mums do. 2015 was a very hard year, I had to grow up a lot when I discovered I ...

Hands up if you're already sick of Christmas adverts rubbing it in your nose that you don't have your baby with you this Christmas (...

It's been 4 months tomorrow since I've been trying for a second baby. Nothing. I know to many 4 months is a drop in the ocean in ter...

Another moaning and miserable post, shock! I honestly don't know what is going wrong with my body currently. I feel as if slowly but sur...

Ugh. I wish I could just end the post there. I think that sums up nicely how I feel about this. Just ugh. I'm fed up of "trying...

I haven't written poetry since I was in Year 8 and I won a poetry competition at school. I had to get up in front of the whole scho...

How did I even get here? I think I find myself asking this nearly daily. All I know is that my baby died and that I'm still clinging on....

I am so excited to take part in the Capture Your Grief project this October. In some ways it is sad that I'm at a point in my life where...

Freddie will always be in our hearts. That's a given, he will never, ever be forgotten. But for me, I need more than that.These days, it...

Initially I started this blog to update about my pregnancy, birth and to track Freddie's milestones as he passed through his childhood....